here and there and nowhere

wilting aching crying
wandering past the five-spoke wheels
they spoke through coughs
and tear-stained silence.

when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even.
when you're heart breaks, my heart breaks
when we brake for hearts we break a heart.
breaking hearts before braking hurts.
slim words.

i forget what i feel,
so i can retain my sanity.
i forget what this is
only because it does and must
exist.
i cannot recall the sensation
because my mind has yet to
handle it.
i forget who you are
so i can stay here.

a siren's song pulled us into revolutions
around the sun again, here we go//forever gone.
honorably we fight the tide of apathy

..yes?

rebreaking a broken heart is out of the question.
and what is this? that we find answers to questions
that were never asked.
that we find solutions to problems that have never
plagued us.
my paperthin skin, lucid. watch my frozen b l o o d
creep through my veins. elucidate the problem
in my congested arteries, those vessels
(watch them float/sink/float along the sea-floor)
plagued by
self-inflicted pathogens.
i never meant to push you into the dark.


all to say

i know not what is inside my head.

market scam

rising and falling
heaving out our breaths.
we measure our time
in what is left.

unworthy, silly, and ever losing ambition,
I follow c ra c k s in the window
forgeting their endless stories.
and hoping the gravel stays on the ground
where it belongs.

exquisite, superhuman, and destined for greatness
you catch sunbeams in the palm of your hand
even when the sky is bundled up in clouds.
what is this to you?

breaking clocks
or keeping them here to forget time,
we can't see the candles that were set for us.
what is life going to do to us?
can we bear the spidery fingers that will eventually
rip
us
apart?


"you got so much love in you
you got so much love
i'm amazed that i'm talking to you
you look like a song that i've heard my
whole life coming true."

minutes never lost

i live and die in a moment
i live and die for the moments
i feel faint
faint in your arms, but never
faint of heart.

trembling, searching for your
face--
swimming and flying and breathing
all in the moments that i cannot find
the ground.

where was the ground? far from my mind
far from us indeed--
i seek sound i search for sight
i find your face and the world is at peace
everything is just alright, tonight some nights.

mistake mistook the world by storm(y weather)
your face retook the world from them
we strike the gong we play their games
we were never in it for just the fame.
i hold your hand and hear the wind
i touch your face and find the paperthin
heart i've been looking for,
buried deep in a cardboard box--protected from the rain.

"how do i love thee? let me count the ways..."