Tuesday, December 21, 2010

the cycle (desire, consumption, awareness, guilt)

well i've wanted this.
oh yes, it's written just
inside my heart and brain..
in my chemicals and genetics
i'm crafted to find you.
to want you.

the complexity of it
all just eats at my brain
and the fear of it all
just tears at my fragile
soul.

the feebleness, the fatigue--
what is this that i have
become? i'm giving up
piece by pieces.

i've been driving a
toyota for quite
a while now. and it
just won't let me
stop.

i've lived in darkness
for quite a while now..
and i don't know if i'll make it out.

i can't make out the light
anymore. or what it was like before.
i can't stop.
i can't stop.
i have told myself i won't stop.
and that is my fatal downfall.

but there you are. (and i have yet to stop myself)

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